Hunger is weird
This semester so far is a killer. I’m taking a full class load, teaching several labs (which includes grading papers), and being an exam proctor/grader for a couple of classes. And my classes are getting harder. Many mornings I have time for a cup of coffee and maybe some instant oatmeal (rarely.) Lunch is often a quick snack if it’s anything at all. Of course, when I am finally home, I am often ravenous, but I’m not finding it hard to eat lots of food at night and stay within where I want to be calorie-wise.
Now, I don’t want to do this long-term. Eating this way makes me feel disordered and I don’t like being as hungry as I am when I finally get home. I’m trying to pack snacks and such to graze on throughout the day this week.
What I find odd though is how my hunger is just not there during the day. When I’m on a more relaxed schedule, I am hungry when I wake up and hungry at lunch and now even when I take a moment to think about it, I don’t feel hungry. That’s why I set reminders on my phone for me to snack. Otherwise, the food just sits in my bag, totally forgotten. I don’t know why, but I find that so fascinating. I hate the idea that hunger is mainly psychological and all we need is a nice bath or a few deep breaths to ‘get over it.’ But I can see how totally entwined psychology and physiology are when it comes to eating. Fascinating.